Once and now.

I once knew Joy. She was amazing and filled up most of my life.
But then she got a boyfriend. the rest is well-known history and a bunch load of lame, stupid clichés...

I can't cry over her anymore, cause I'm all dried-out.
I can't tell her things anymore, cause she doesn't want to know me.
I can't see her anymore, cause she doesn't want to know of me.

We dreamed together. Now, dreaming of her only brings bitterness.
We laughed together. Now, laughing is still not the same.
We cried together. Now, I won't cry anymore!

My dream is to get a boat and sail all over the world. and to become a tattoo-artist and live of my artwork. I also wanna go and help people as a nurse.
And as always, I wanna see as much of the world as possible!

I don't really care what sacrifices I make, cause I know it'll be worth it in the end!

Bill, I owe you so much! <3

And I hope Joy is happy, even though I'm no longer part of it, and that this fact will always burn in my chest.
thanks for the past 15 years together. I couldn't have made it whithout you!

Now, I will try to only look forwards! :3